Recently, it was was brought to my attention that I had been cyber-bullied. I always thought that was something my generation had just missed, but apparently it can strike you at any age. Very weird.
So it was brought to my attention that someone had gone on my high school's Wikipedia page and updated the section under Theatre to say the following:
I'm not gonna lie, whoever did this got under my skin a little bit. They dug into some of those deep insecurities I haven't felt since the dreaded days of high school. I suddenly became so self-aware. I started thinking maybe I was an idiot for taking myself so seriously and for thinking I had actually made a dent in my career. Even writing this now I feel that way just a little bit. But it's been a few days and I think I can finally articulate my true feelings on the matter. So, here goes:
I'm incredibly aware that I have a large voice on social media sites. To some people, maybe it's obnoxious. Maybe it seems like I'm trying to plaster my accomplishments all over the place, or that I'm maximizing every little success I have to the umpteenth degree. But you know what? It's working. And that's why I'm not going to stop using social media to promote myself. In just a few short decades people won't remember there wasn't ever a way to communicate without technology, so why wouldn't I jump on the bandwagon now? Also, Kickstarter is an amazing resource for independent filmmakers, and every campaign I have been a part of has been successful. I work really hard to prove to people that their contribution will go a long way, and some people love me enough to want that for me. I remember the people who help me, and I would do the same for them.
If you don't want to read my stuff, then do not follow me and read my stuff. This person is obviously posing as a friend on Facebook if they are so up to date on what I am working on because I rarely have a chance to actually talk to people from back home. So...please stop creepily following my life and festering in some weird anger about it. To you at home reading this- I won't insult your intelligence by pretending like I can sway your opinion of me one way or the other just because I say something is so, but I do hope you'll give me enough credit to believe that I have never done anything so malicious as to inspire someone to log-in to a website, call me out by name, and...you know what, now that I'm thinking about it this person kinda did me a favor. I was the only student named under minor success, and they actually plugged Kelsey for me! They straight-up said the name of the show they were so sick of me promoting. See - social media advertising DOES work! And low production horror films- I'm glad they made that plural because I've definitely worked on a bunch. I've also gotten paid for a lot of them. Here's a little glimpse at what my day on a low budget horror set is like:
Wake up and arrive after everyone else
Eat anything I want for free all day
Have someone give me clothes to wear
Have someone do my hair and makeup
Run through the woods looking scared for 3 hours.
Hour long break/Nap
Shoot make-out scene with hot lead actor 15, whoops, 16 takes. (I only sort of messed up those last few takes on purpose :::wink::wink:::)
Hour Long Break/Nap
Shoot fun death scene for 4 hours and get covered in blood and dirt
Go to bed before anyone else
Repeat & get paid
Now, the job certainly has its drawbacks. Sometimes I have to sleep on dirty floors and work up to 30 hours with no real break. I have to shoot a lot of outdoor scenes in brutal weather extremities. 50% of the time the projects don't have the budget to pay actors so I'm working solely for footage and friendships/connections. But when it's awesome, it's really awesome.
By the way, bully, how do you like your day job?
Some people have this angsty belief that the world is turning to shit because of the reliance on gadgets, but I don't see it as a reliance. It's a major convenience- I kind of like the knowledge and the outreach that comes so easily to us at this day and age and I will use it to my advantage, thank you very much. The singularity cannot be denied. Technology is the next step for humans. We shouldn't fight evolution just because it's different from the way we lived in the past. After all, it's thanks to technology that my roommate was able to trace the IP address of the person who changed my high school's Wikipedia article on January 31st, 2014 to an exact location. Also lucky for me, I'm from a small town so it's easy to find out who lives where.
That rude entry didn't stay up for long. Within hours my friends had marked it as spam, corrected it and conducted their own searches of the IP address. I didn't even hear about the incident until a few weeks after it happened. In fact, this blog will attract more attention then it ever got when it was live on the web.
After reading Tina Fey's "Bossypants" I remember thinking, “One day someone will hate me and I'll have to learn to see it as a compliment." If someone hates me this much I must be making some strong impressions. What that translates to is: I must be doing something right.
“Don’t waste your energy trying to educate or change opinions; go over, under, through, and opinions will change organically when you’re the boss. Or they won’t. Who cares? Do your thing, and don’t care if they like it.” - Tina Fey, Bossypants
P.S. - Have you seen the trailer for my low-budget horror/thriller feature film Summit? Take a look - it was funded via Kickstarter! (badum ching)